What is real, just a dream.
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Sue: happily attached to Shahidan
LIFE IS GOOD!
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009, 6:46 PM
ive been blogging in so not consistent manner.and i knew this would happen somehow when i first
started blogging.
crazy days,lazy days,tired days.
fun days,jolly days,laugh-out-loud days.
i call upon the sun to just continue shining on me.
i miss my boyfriend every single day.
im thinking whether i should join the ite bishan
alumni dinner.
im thinking of how to balance study and work.
i salute those who do well in their studies.
ace them without having to sigh and scratch their scalp off.
im thinking what other random stuffs ill mention along the way.
im wondering what is gonna happen tomorrow and the days after.
i wish i could make the world go just the way people want it to be.
i wish everyone gets whatever they desire.
i wish i could see more smiles around me.
no more sighs.no more breathing hard cold air.
im blogging in riddles again.
but they dont rhyme.
but no matter what i still stick to my motto;
life is good.
that i dont deny.
everyone deserves their happiness.
*oh lord,please make the world a happy place.
i love you.
peace all.
Labels: random-ooh-so-random
Thursday, November 5, 2009, 11:34 PM
hollllaaaamy mind is blocked for now.
spinning wild but nothing make sense.
ive been thinking through about the topic i wanna
do for the itab's project that is to be submitted soon.
in two weeks time.but still.
so here comes the list.
pompeii,italy.
food.thats lame.
witch crafts
film
arghhh!at the end of an hour of lazy browsing the web,
i came to no conclusion.
i wanna sign up for yoga or kick boxing sessions.
anyone interested?
just need a superb fun company.
right now,my mind is swirling.
randomly,i miss screaming down the drain.
i think i need chris.
i wanna hear my voice echo down through and resound
few drains away ahead me.
my craving senses are back.
*I SERIOUSLY MISS MY BOYFRIEND*
peace people.
Labels: what a blimey day.headaches equal a dick.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009, 7:47 PM
hey there=)its been a long time since i got myself blogging.
everythings a blast.
at the end of everyday,im super worn out.
and panadol/aspirin has been my daily supplement.
i know isnt right.
schools a shag.tho shag isnt a right term to describe it.
according to joting.;p
schools been a fun playground.
to laugh and simply enjoy dba04 selves.
when its supposed to also kick up the study spirit.
but that doesnt work much well.
for me.for now.perhaps.
i wonder when i will start my ooh-this-is-it!study time!mood.
im still waiting.
self-study motivation has never been my forte.
that i wish,i have.
i know this entry is getting out of place.
randomly messy.
beats me.
been catching loads of movies lately.
with the people i love and adore.
still am looking forward to many great ones soon to come.
arghhh!one matter thats worrying me now.
my stats crap.
i know i shouldnt worry or complain.
but sheesh!stats a pain to me.
no matter how i try,i just simply cant catch any of it.
i know i make it sound as if stats somekind of fish or what;
but haiz.its a bug.
monday,boyfriend and me turned a year together.
weeh!that sets me happy.
and tomorrow,will be catching up with him again.
catching up equals meeting him.
chatting on the phone every night equals blimeyyy not enough.
*i just love him so so much. =))
i know i expect alot from him.
maybe cos its just me.
or alright;its just me.
i dont know what im bullshitting about anymore.
guess,i will have to stop here.
alright;shoot off those blues.
they're not here to stay.
they just make you crazy and worry as hell.
and in no time,you shall laugh and grow some inch.
good days ahead people.
Labels: big girls dont cry
Monday, October 26, 2009, 12:58 AM
UPDATE:LIFE IS GOOD!
Labels: =)
Saturday, October 17, 2009, 2:49 AM
NOW IM SERIOUSLY IN DOUBTS.im not exaggerating matters or what.
but im just confused with some stuffs.
and they are mind-bogging.
crazily mind-bogging.
when i say they are mind-bogging;
it means they bog my head just too much.
and then eventually,ill get tired.
then,just get rid of the mind-boggers.
bahh.
i hate.i hate.i hate.
i ask myself,a sorry.
im suppose to say its ok.
i did;but still im scarred.
and now,im sorry.
Labels: you made me cry again.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009, 4:40 PM
how to motivate oneself to study?BEATS ME!
i have to retest two modules.
but im simply not feeling the anxiety and kick to open those notes.
arghhh!
and just now,added a gems module.
finally,after much attempts;
i got myself:film appreciation.
i dont even know what it is all about.
blimey.
im missing boyfriend so much.
these few nights,without fail as always,
he calls me before he heads to bed.
but we chat for pathetically less than 5 minutes.
sheesh.
everythings a shag inside me.
good people,hail to you.
peace.
Labels: army is a real shag
Sunday, October 11, 2009, 11:47 PM
using ainslie baby as the 'i say i love you' model!
weeeh.
=))i say spread your love around.
1:45 AM
hello human beans.today had a day with boyfriend.
oooh,my love is growing deeper each week.
after hearts to hearts chat and our playful jokes,
hes incomparable to anything in my life.
right now;im listening to everything i do,i do it for you.
by bryan adams.
okay,this entry is definitely an ooh-im-so-in-love-with-my-
boyfriend entry.
got some of my ever so craving bites,
chippy's fried mars bars,strawberry yogurt,diet coke,
mc spicy and vanilla milkshake.
a day of junkies.=)wonderful.
a walk in the park to end the day;relished those old days.
jolly good time.
i never could have wished for anything else.seriously.
meeting boyfriend only once a week,is kinda tough for me.
even now,im still finding it hard for days of missing him.
bahh.i want him to get over and done with the staying in camps.
i sound so not independent.i dont care.
i dont wanna be too independent anymore.
cos i know this boyfriend,i can depend on.
shahidan,I LOVE YOU.
to all;spread the loveeeeee.say your love to your loved ones.
never stop.
=)yipppeee.
Labels: shahidan.shahidan.shahidan.
Saturday, October 10, 2009, 2:52 AM
holla=))so i tell myself;lets have a quickie.
im left with only 10 mins to blog.
cos batt gonna die any sooner.
down with bad flu and id just swallowed two pills.
hopefully,tomorrow would be all good.
*thanks for dying on me.
anyhoots;lets continue.*
next week would be a revision all over again for me.
but for now,thinking of revising just brings me headache.
remembering the tons of units to mug on,
im totally DREADING them.
but cmon,just get over them.the sooner the better.
since all this is already crap.a drag.
boyfriend says its a norm to sit for retests in poly life.
as this is my first time down with a retest my whole life,
i kinda got a little freak out.
theres a first for everything.so yeah.
YESSAAA!
meeting boyfriend as per usual.every saturday.
but im missing out the girlies' hari raya outing this year.
ISE,ooh!how i miss them.
most have taken their days off the job hook,
so there is no other alternative date for the outing.
prolly have to wait another year to celebrate hari raya with them.
i miss many people.
i miss doing loads of things.
picnic,basking under the sun,sitting and chatting under heavy rain,
crapping about in a giant web pyramid(zai should know),
dancing like theres no tomorrow,hearing piano placed
in the middle of the school's canteen in amidst thunder blaring,
running around with wet socks on my hands,
just screaming and not getting dagger eyes.
to make a long story short,
i really miss those kiddo days.
those were the days.
ive never gotten over them.
and i never will want to throw those days away.
i look back and i smile to myself cos every bit of what i did those days,
equals to a story.
those people who stood by me,they were there to see me through hard days,
they never ran away.
they just stood and promised good days were coming through.
and now that good days have come through,
i miss them all.
significantly the people i used to chilled out with after school.
i can name names.but i reckon;they know themselves.
alright,enough of this.
people,be happy.
if days seem bad enough,remember,they are not here to stay.
just put it this way;passing dark clouds.
i learnt along the years;
a loser's thoughts lingers with;
what could,what should,what would have been.
ironic!id been living in a loser's shadow often whenever
i went through setbacks in my life.
but never could i shake myself up and tell myself to get rid of those
negative thoughts.
and now,that id realise how often i tend to let those thoughts linger
in me and sucked in my good days,
thats when i woke up and shoo them away.
wisdom.
i never fail to look out for it to just make me a better person
along the way.
cos one thing i believe in my life:
always learn to live and forgive.
i hope everyone that i love and care about;
will always be happy.
make the world a happy place.
cos everyone deserves their own happiness.
peace y'all.
lovess.
Labels: so much of my quickie.super duper long post from my heart.
Friday, October 9, 2009, 1:53 AM
hello great peeps.had a quick meet up with darlingg nadz just now.
was all good.
catch up like the old days.hehe.
shall do it often girl.
i just checked the sp blackboard.
and as expected;i have to retest both poa and economics.
blimey.
now im feeling;simply shitty.
ive got an estimate=two weeks from now=retests.
and im flustered.plus panic.
i have to start mugging tomorrow.
for real.
i dont wanna slack anymore.
for now;no 1 priority on the retests.
*sighing.
i wanna have my late night warm shower now.
i need some perks.
i wanna mask myself.
this way;i hope i would be ready for tomorrow open book day.
after a whole of dusty 5 weeks.
i deserve some spanks.
arghhhh!
i dont regret.im just upset.
okays,thats the same.
peace human beans.
you all stay good kays?
night;)
Labels: retests?face it, sue.
Thursday, October 8, 2009, 2:00 AM
hey there=))the six weeks holiday have summed up to;slack.
arghhh.
flashforward is a kicking good show.i like=).
i know that is so random.
im left with close to a week before school reopens.
i cant wait for saturday to just come by to spend
another good day with shahidan.
once a week meet up is really insufficient.
i need to find myself a part time job real soon.
theres so many stuffs i wanna grab.
many things im falling heels over.
yesterday was a meet up with dearest aishah.
was nice.had a late lunch and walk around.
we catch up with the so-lost time and i grabbed
chippy's mars bars.yummy!
had a monopoly card game and chatted about our lives.
=).
and tomorrow,meeting up with sweet nadz.=)
cant wait.
unfortunately rita would be working.bahh.
shall meet up with her as well soon.
i wanna catch many movies.
shall list them down.:
500 days of summer
my sister's keeper
darah
funny people
for now; stay happy all.
*i love you,shahidan.
peace.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009, 1:29 AM
pictures with random order.
these were uploaded last night.
and tonight im just gonna list some stuffs down.
shall blog in a new entry.
i miss my boyfriend practically all the time.
seriously.bahh.
Labels: the days
Saturday, October 3, 2009, 11:32 PM
heres a pict.later on,ill upload the rest.
a little scope of today:-
went to boyfriend's army camp.
glad that his bunk is completely comfy looking.
and hes doing so good.=)
will elaborate soon.
right now,my period cramps not doing me any favour.
arghhh.
Labels: monopoly deal card game is a real game
Friday, October 2, 2009, 5:26 PM
Shahidan's Graduation Parade's pictures:i stole them from his facebook.
haha.blimey.;p
Labels: life will be super good one day
5:18 PM
yooohaaa!today,shahidan and me turns 11 months together=D
weeh!
to him:
you ve always been there for me.
that;im really thankful for.=)
i would be coming down to jurong tomorrow to see how he copes there.
his bunks,bunkmates and everything.
would be fun.
he cares that i might get bored there but nah..
i just wanna check out everything that is related to him.
*whatever that comes our way,we ll brave through.
peace all.
happy there aytes;)
Labels: this i promise you.
Thursday, October 1, 2009, 1:48 AM
Uploader is on my side for now.
so heres some pictures of the beautiful sceneries
that i fell in love two years ago when a
friend of mine shared with me.
so heres some pictures of the beautiful sceneries
that i fell in love two years ago when a
friend of mine shared with me.
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wonder pictures right?
Labels: just fill the blank
1:39 AM
Blank Slateby Sylvia
Pedagogues write the words
for the course
across the blackboard.
Render a mistake,
simply erase, begin anew.
If only it were that simple,
an incorrect word,
the lesson changes.
Chalk dust accumulates,
covering surface
with minuscule particles,
debris to be removed,
preparing for the next words
to be written there.
No matter how you scrub,
impressions linger,
barely visible to the naked eye.
Layer upon layer added,
until confusion reigns,
signification destroyed.
An enigma, metaphorical or
allegorical language,
requires ingenuity
and careful thinking for its solution.
What will you write on the slate today?
Labels: a poem
12:54 AM
hello=)this world is indeed a mad world.
it gets tougher at some points of time.
you feel that at that point you can never get the strength
to face tomorrows.
too many sorrows,challenges and thoughts of being a better person.
i realised i think-business ever since i joined ITE.
to do way better than just enough is good.
i want to give the best to my dearest parents and family.
and when i mean the best;i mean it well.
enough is never enough.
im not greedy;i want to go as far as i can.
goal-oriented.
*sorry if i bore anyone.
just got a little side tracked.i usuallly think them through myself
or talk to boyfriend about my life goals.
but hes asleep for now and i cant stop myself.
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i wanna sunbathe.
i have tons of outings to go for.
before holiday ends.
i need to start jogging.like seriously.
and maybe take up floorball as my cca next term.
my bones makes breaking sound after doing little chores each time.
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im in riddle again:
is there such thing as having the desire to know that the
person is happy whenever,wherever;
but not having the desire to be a friend to that person?
cos it will just complicate things.
i wonder.beats me.
in anyway,its already gone.
i dont need that 'friendship'.
and im happier when i sent it away.
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im good.
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people say when you turn 20,many problems will arise.
cos the digit 2 leads the way.
requires you to be wiser.
i now believe the saying.
you would start thinking about what you wanna do in life,
what is expected of you,
how to make your parents and people who are important to you
proud of you;
and most importantly;
would you be proud of yourself one fine day
and of cos theres all those tiny weeny bit deals that
comes along.
your mind just go swirling.
okay,ill shut up.
peace to all.
deep inside;i know im alright.
cos everyone will feel this way.
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*love is something real
you would do all you can to protect it;
thats when i know i love.
Labels: i dont dream, i plan
Wednesday, September 30, 2009, 2:18 AM
many more.im lazy to continue uploading for now.
will soon.
muah!
Labels: Hari Raya 2009
1:47 AM
been super blimey lately.i dont think i wanna blog it out.
but im doing pretty good.
to shahidan;i love you and only you.
peace.
Labels: mad world
Monday, September 28, 2009, 4:33 AM
shahidan bin mohd yusof
youre something.=)
i love you so much.
Labels: totally loved